“I’m pretty new to this,” she said in a podcast. “What I’ve been doing for the last like month or so is reading the Bible and praying. And it’s been, like, the amount of peace I’ve had I haven’t had before. It’s completely absurd. I can’t believe it.”
Peterson, 29, recalled experiencing four significant issues in her life, all of which were “going really badly.” Over the summer, she traveled to Austin, Texas, where she met a Christian man with whom she shared some of the details of her struggles. The problem, the man told Peterson, was that she needed God. Peterson said she was unsure how to “get there,” referring to connecting with the Lord, and the man told her she needed to ask God to reveal himself to her.
“I went home that night, and I was pretty upset about these four major problems, and I was in bed, so I was praying, seriously praying and the next day, all four problems cleared up in ways that made sense, it was logical, they could have cleared up,” she said. “But the likelihood of all four of them randomly clearing up that day was just too much. I also woke up with this sense of calm that I hadn’t felt. And that was enough. I was like, ‘OK, that’s good enough for me.’”
Over the next couple of weeks, Peterson said she pored over scripture, reading her Bible and praying every day. She then, however, second-guessed herself, wondering if the sudden faith in God nothing was more than an emotional fluke — a fleeting feeling that could be explained away with logic and reason. She said the two days that followed that moment of questioning were miserable, remembering an overwhelming feeling of “existential angst.”
“And then I had the most wild dream,” she said. “I woke up at 5:30 in the morning and I had a dream. This loud thundering voice just yelled, ‘Do it!’ And I woke up at 5:30 in the morning, thinking, ‘I think I just got yelled at by God. I think that just happened.’ That’s what it felt like. It occurred to me that I think what it meant was just go all in, don’t do this like 75 percent. It’s been a wild month. I’m doing well. It’s just I’m a little bit shocked.”
–Alan Goforth | Metro Voice